heh, it's the end of the week, and half of the exams! and so this calls for celebration, by just a blog post xD.
just updates on how i've been doing for exams, or at least what i THINK i've been doing. monday was chinese, so-so, was rather blank cause it was the first day. ended up writing rubbish. tuesday was better i thought, but it turned out horrible with 62 for math, meaning i currently require 89 for monday's paper -.- wednesday. english! shawn's notes proved really really useful, thanks! i ended up spending more time on srq than compo in the end, cause i finished it in 45min ;D yesterday!! was really really a morale booster. bio that is. and today's chem was manageable, looks quite positive to me too (:
okay. so enough of that large, boring chunk of text. today's headlines are on how primary schools are going to change in future, like eventually becoming single session throughout, forcefully implementing compulsory CCA, and increasing CCA administrators.
which is kinda sad i think, cause i remember enjoying my p1 and p3 life, where it was afternoon session for my school xD. then then, it was when i could watch tv every night until 12 and wake up at my own time the next morning! and so, gone are those days, now i still sleep at 12, just that i wake up like 4 hours earlier -.-
haha yay! the back of my mouth is no longer swelling :D well, i think i've a wisdom tooth growing out from the back of the left side of my mouth, so for the past few days it's been causing the back of my mouth where the gums are to swell! and then i wasn't able to close my mouth properly to allow my teeth to touch each other, cause it'll be pressing against the swollen spot. in fact, i couldn't even chew my food cause i had three ulcers and that swollen portion.
and i have set my aim to finish my chem papers and understand physics relatively well by tonight! and i'm so not gonna sleep until i do just that (: well, shouldn't be too tough since i've already finished my chem papers.
in the midst of being caught up with work, with complaints, and with countless desperate attempts to take matters into my own hands, i've realised once again that i shouldn't be the one deciding my own fate at all. in these two weeks i've missed church, work definitely wasn't a legitimate excuse, because nothing should take a higher priority than God.
and so while trying to change things myself, i've conveniently tried to do everything myself, without prayers, without anything at all. even my quiet time's reduced to the several minutes before i turn in to bed, as if it was an obligation, and not a choice of my own free will. and so for the past weeks, or even months, what i've really been doing is living in an outer shell, while really i was struggling spiritually inside.
perhaps it was why everything went downhill for me, results, relationships, nothing went well no matter how much effort i put in. and well, He has just spoken to my heart through grace's and nicole's blogposts. and while typing this post and labelling it, i realise how long it has ever since God has taken the centre, the main priority of my life.
damn it damn it damn it. why do i feel so damn stressed. why do my parents just keep walking in and out of the room no matter what i'm doing, and just coming in to nag and stress me even more. it just freaking makes me lose the mood to mug, and to concentrate. it's not like i know it's a crucial period right now, i don't freaking need you to walk in twice or thrice a day to remind me, or to ask me how my results and ACE are three times a day.
and it doesn't help that some of my closest ones feel so distant away. maybe it's cause of exams and promos as well, but i don't even feel close to them anymore. i can't even strike a conversation anymore, without getting ignored. thanks alot for all the support.
i feel damn horrible too, for not going to church for two weeks in a row already. freak you studies. or maybe it's just your own problem nelson, you just need to have your own self discipline to drag yourself to church no matter how busy you are, cause God's above everything.
well, just came back from bbq about an hour ago, and i'm really tired even though i bathed already =/ was quite enjoyable i guess, since got to see several people i haven't seen in a long while, like pF :D
and like the prev bbq, it rained when we were about to finish cooking. at least we got the warning signs, which appeared as a really strong gale which never died down, and blew for at least fifteen minutes before the drizzle came upon us. initially we took refuge at macs, and ordered a large amount of mcflurry, but got bored and shifted to marina bowl to bowl heh. and i screwed up my game man, cause i can't even remember when the last time i touched a bowling ball was. at least i regained some form at the end where i made two spares in a row, but was too late! but i beat ningyu HAHA (:
my parents were supposed to pick me up at about 2230, but they came about 2300 instead, so i spent the rest of the time by bridging, which turned out to be only two games which i wonnnn. and home sweet home it was, giving fen a lift home at the same time. and so i've no idea why i'm here blogging, when i'm supposed to try to finish my work while i'm dead tired.
i still think we're drifting, cause communication between us is so minimal nowadays.
and so there were supplementary lessons today, as kah hong insists that it should be named this way, and not "remedials for noobs" -.- i was supposed to go to gym today to work out, but i realised that i didnt bring my pe shorts, and which i see no link as a requirement to do weights. yep, so after like touching a few pieces of equipment, some person chased everyone not wearing full pe out of the weights room and of course, that included me.
heh, after which i went to golden rooster with a few others to eat lunch, but was packed as usual. in order to find somewhere comfortable to eat, we walked all the way to a closed bar nearby and used the tables outside to eat, where we discussed all sorts of rubbish like the importance of money.
AAAND. i ate island creamery for the first time too, since we were rather bored and decided to random around! it turned out to be not bad i say, and i quite liked the nutella flavour, which four of us shared a 500ml tub. and it's kind affordable too, with the tub being just $8.00 and splitting into $2.00 each, the same price as my mcflurry, but with a much bigger and more satisfying portion.
all in all, was kind of fun today, just that it was really tiring since i slept late last night, and didn't manage to sleep on the train/bus this morning while on the way to school, so i knocked out the moment i reached home, and slept for about 2.5h ><
ohh, and i think i'm becoming damn sensitive to radiation. i was just talking on the phone just now for a few minutes on my phone, and after i put down my handphone, my ear felt as if it was sunburnt and damn hot. according to baifeng, my ear was rather red too, and as i'm typing this, the laptop happens to be extremely hot where my hands rest too, radiating large amounts of heat and leaving my hand feeling tingy =/
wooo, i'm feeling slightly happier today, cause i've finally got down to mugging. and i've been relatively productive, considering that i've spent about 4-5h today just on math! and i'm proud to say that i'm at least two-thirds done with S4 math! which just leaves me with S3 math, bio, physics... you get the gist.
BUT HEY, look on the bright side! i'm gaining momentum at least :D and there's remedials tmr which sucks. and i'm finally going to exercise and work out tomorrow -.-
so off i go now, and hopefully i'll get down to more work in awhile (:
nel hwa chong institution
16 years old nov 06 1992
christian
well, i'm just a usual nobody who's slightly inclined towards blogging, and a child of God. you're susceptible to the manipulation of my thoughts while you're around here! muahahaha. okay, enough of my rubbish, you can continue reading now :D and don't forget to TAG!
wishlist!
- The Fux Deluxe
- Havaianas
- Sony Ericsson C903
- Canon EOS 500D
- Huge study table :D
well, i'm just a usual nobody who's slightly inclined towards blogging, and a child of God. you're susceptible to the manipulation of my thoughts while you're around here! muahahaha. okay, enough of my rubbish, you can continue reading now :D and don't forget to TAG!