12:48 AM
Sep 10, 2008
in the midst of being caught up with work, with complaints, and with countless desperate attempts to take matters into my own hands, i've realised once again that i shouldn't be the one deciding my own fate at all. in these two weeks i've missed church, work definitely wasn't a legitimate excuse, because nothing should take a higher priority than God.
and so while trying to change things myself, i've conveniently tried to do everything myself, without prayers, without anything at all. even my quiet time's reduced to the several minutes before i turn in to bed, as if it was an obligation, and not a choice of my own free will. and so for the past weeks, or even months, what i've really been doing is living in an outer shell, while really i was struggling spiritually inside.
perhaps it was why everything went downhill for me, results, relationships, nothing went well no matter how much effort i put in. and well, He has just spoken to my heart through
grace's and
nicole's blogposts. and while typing this post and labelling it, i realise how long it has ever since God has taken the centre, the main priority of my life.
it's time to give it back to you, God.
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well, i'm just a usual nobody who's slightly inclined towards blogging, and a child of God. you're susceptible to the manipulation of my thoughts while you're around here! muahahaha. okay, enough of my rubbish, you can continue reading now :D and don't forget to TAG!